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My Owner and I are having one of our off again, on again, off again spats, so I sit here today a single lady, unowned, free, not dominated. Yet, I’ve never been as into the denial as I am right now.

One of the things I enjoy about being unowned is that I get to decide when to play, what kind of play, how much, and whether that includes edging or not. Naturally, it always does lol. So through my masochism, and the orgasm denial, I tend to work myself into a state of extreme arousal, where I become a complete pain slut, and nothing is too much to take.

Hello to all,

I know I've been away for a while. Didn't really intend to. Life and having a bad cold/flu for a few weeks will do that. But all is better now. I guess it’s time to catch everyone up.

So I have NO idea why but I am absolutely FASCINATED with the thought of ruined orgasms lately! I'll tell you why. About 2 months ago, after not having cum for quite some time, I was asleep and I'm not sure what type of dream I was having but I actually woke myself up by cumming! But wait, I DIDN'T let myself! In my half-asleep state, I panicked at the thought of having an "unauthorized" orgasm and immediately spread my legs out so I had zero stimulation.

Okay , Master allowed me an orgasm..this next morning, and it was Fantastic! Long and powerful and intense and hot and everywhere and soooo goood... never mind what i may have said about delicious denial..those orgasms, when finally allowed are great! LOL, I can't wait for the next one..denial is not on my wish list at this moment, just another orgasm..But..i am not allowed...back to strict no-touch, for who knows how long. And i thought i would be all relaxed after my orgasm, silly me, just as horny as before, if not more..sighs..back to torment land for me.

Yesterday, the day before the last day..my task given to me by Master, was to shave my pussy! That was a tough one, but, I was not about to give up a chance for an orgasm. Not sure yet what today's last task will be.

I transferred over my blogger post (Strawberrysigh in denial) from last night to this site:

Hello everyone! I'm quite new to tantalism in the terms of posting, though I've been lurking for pretty long time. :)

day..7

well,a small delay in my orgasm earning..i did my task yesterday, as my Dom had suggested, (5 minutes clothespins on my nipples..not too hard )but then lost the privilege of denial by some poor behavior. This is what happens when you let someone other than yourself run the show! LOL..Master doesn't come to this site (yet). Well, not always being a tricky sub, I naturally did not edge( or touch, I am on strict no touch other than for the evening edge),and it was fine because I was really tired.

Those of you who have been following my little game may recall that last time I posted, I was trying to draw out the teasing leading up to my daily edge, to test the theory that by increasing the period of stimulation, I'd be better able to say no to an orgasm when the moment of decision arrived. I'm pleased to report that my theory seems to be well supported!

I went on a chat room today per my master and he told me to find a master online to tease me. I had already been wondering around the house doing laundry and cleaning with a small clitoral vibrator on the whole time. This began at 11 am and ended around 6:30pm. Honestly my longest denial period.