another update

Wow, I go away for a month and I miss all sorts of fun...

While I was gone I was working very hard and thinking about what you've all said, and then I was on vacation and getting a chance to experiment. Before I left, Mongojerry asked me if I fantasized about being held down. I didn't usually, but during my last session of teasing (in my last entry) my ex-girlfriend had held my hips still to keep me from coming, and I found that really sexy...so I started thinking more and more about being held down, and I realized that while I'm starting to like being tied, what I really like is being held. Hands and a body are just so much more attractive than rope. However, I like my partner to tease me with his/her hands and tongue, and being held still during that is not really a viable option, so I my fantasies kept involving a third person to do the holding. So on vacation, I decided to experiment...

I was on vacation with my ex-girlfriend (well, we're no longer dating, but we still have sex), Lauren, and my ex-boyfriend (it was the same with him till he got a new girlfriend), Nate, and Nate's lovely current girlfriend, Julia. In my tease/hold fantasies, there was always a very specific power dynamic: the person doing the teasing was completely in charge, I was completely at mercy, and the person doing the holding was somewhere in the middle...sort of dominating in that s/he would be holding and positioning me, but also "on my side" in that s/he would be doing that all on the teaser's orders, and s/he would be also talking to me to help me calm down when I was right on the edge. I knew that Lauren would be doing the teasing, since she has a little dominant streak and I trust her completely, and then she and I approached Julia and Nate about one of them being our third person. Julia was more willing to take direction, so she volunteered. (Well...she was coaxed. ;)) Nate got to watch.

We all went back to my room. Nate sat on the armchair, and the women & I sat on the bed in our bras and panties. We decided to watch a little porn to break the ice. Lauren told me to masturbate while the porn was on, but not to come. Julia got pretty comfortable and started masturbating too...and of course she was allowed to come, and that drove me CRAZY. Seeing her get closer and closer while I forced myself to stay on a plateau was almost impossible. I was already asking Lauren if I could please come. (Julia found that very entertaining...we definitely had picked the right girl!) After Julia had come twice, we decided we were all warmed up and we could get started.

I had told Lauren in advance about my fantasies of being "used," also, so she had me lay down on the bed with my legs together and my arms relaxed at my sides. She told me I was not supposed to move (within reason)...if she wanted me in a different position, Julia would have to position me. That was a little bit scary, but in a thrilling way. Lauren said she wanted me with my legs spread and my knees bent, and the next thing I knew, Julia's hands were under my calves, gently and capably moving me into position. It took a bit of practice to relax myself completely and not try to resist or help as she moved me, but once I completely gave myself over to Julia's hands, it felt amazing. Feeling one hand under my calf and one under my knee, lifting my leg...not knowing exactly when I'd find myself in position...then waiting to feel the same thing on my other leg, waiting for Julia to hurry up and make me available to Lauren...it was just incredible. When my legs were finally spread, Lauren told Julia to hold my hands over my head, so I wouldn't be tempted to move my arms.

Lauren got down between my legs and started teasing me, first with her tongue and then with her hands. She got me to the edge a few times, and each time she'd stop touching me and just held my hips still as I struggled to reach orgasm by myself, the way she had last time. I guess she gave Julia a little advice before we got started, because after watching me nearly come twice, Julia caught on to my rhythms...so then once she would see me getting very close, she would tell me to breathe deep and slow, or to concentrate on keeping my stomach muscles still, and anything else Lauren and I had learned in our last session. (However, I was not allowed to move my legs, so I couldn't straighten them...which, you might remember from last time, is one of the ways I can stop myself from coming...so that drove me INSANE.) This whole time Julia was holding my hands right over my head, and occasionally stroking my breasts or my cheek (depending on whether she was trying to tease me or calm me down). I found myself wishing for Julia to do a little bit more...I wanted Lauren to have her move me, or to hold me down, or something. But then I was distracted because Lauren brought me to the edge again.

Then Lauren began something new...after bringing me to the edge, she wouldn't just sit there waiting for me to calm down. She'd get up and go talk to Nate, leaving me waiting, with Julia holding my hands still so I couldn't even touch myself. It turned out that Lauren and Nate were conspiring...they'd talk about what she should do to tease me next, and then he'd come over and stand behind her as she sucked my clit or fingered me gently. (Sometimes he was helpful though...he'd start chatting with me to distract me from what Lauren was doing.)

Then I got my wish for Julia to do more. Nate and Lauren decided they'd been too easy on me. I didn't know quite what that meant, until Lauren brought me closer and closer to the edge...and then didn't stop when I got here. She just told me not to come, and kept on playing with me. Nate tried to distract me when it got particularly difficult, and Julia kept reminding me to breathe and stay still...but eventually my pussy was throbbing and clenching, and so hot and wet it felt like I was burning, and I just couldn't fight the urge to MOVE. I begged Lauren to let me come, and she said no, although she did slow down a little to help me out. I begged her to let me move my legs, and she said no. But I couldn't help it...I was squirming and pulling my legs together...so Lauren told Julia to hold my legs apart. Julia let go of my wrists to do it, and the first thing I did was reach down between my legs. So Julia grabbed my wrists again and put my hands back up above my head. Keeping one hand on my wrists, Julia leaned over and held one of my legs still. I was still moving the other leg, so Nate walked over to that side and held that leg still. It was torture...there I was, legs spread, not quite able to move my hips because of the way I was being held, my hands above my head, my pussy aching, strong hands keeping me still just the way I'd dreamed about, and Lauren licking my clit with two fingers inside me. All I could say was "please please please please please" nonstop, and after a few moments Lauren said yes but completely back off of me. Even though I knew I could make myself come, I didn't want to because I didn't have the full range of motion that I liked to use, and I had such a huge orgasm built up inside of me that I didn't want to come with my pussy empty and my clit untouched. I groaned. Then Lauren said, "Okay, don't come just yet," and slid her fingers inside of me, and used her other hand to stroke my clit. All I could do was close my eyes and moan because I really couldn't fight it...and then Lauren told me I could come, and I came HARD. Hips bucking, legs struggling against Nate and Julia's hands, my fingers grasping at Julia's, and it went on for so long...it was great. When it was over, I just kept thanking them.

Then, of course, since I had hogged the fun for so long, it was their turn to enjoy themselves...but I was pretty much exhausted, and spent the rest of the time stretched out on the bed just watching.

And that's the end for now. Okay, this post is long enough, right?