male denial

Hello. I have been reading this site for awhile and finally created an account. i am mid-30's and have been practicing T&D on and off for years. I haven't much will power, though, and have been looking for a guiding hand. I won;t beg, but if anyone may be interested or know of one who is, please let me know. Thank you.

Ok everybody,
so I'm a 24 year old who has been single for quite a while. Just one for those things. Always fall for the girl who is attached, or just when she becomes single and starts trusting you and getting friendly she switches gears and dates some other tool you work with etc...

So I masturbate a lot lol. I have specific fetishes that I enjoy I may get into later but on average I masturbate at least once a day. At least 5 times a week.

I last cum over 24 days ago--and that was only once, after not cumming for weeks. So I've waited to build up an enormous amount of pent up sexual energy before posting here. Been furiously horny the past week, and absolutely desperate for an ejaculation since day 19. So on day 19 I finally begged "Please let me cum. PLEASE!" for a chance to cum. I was asked if I'd like to be allowed to stroke and eager said yes, assuming this meant stroking leading slowly but surely all the way to ejaculation.

After the week long "celebration" of one year without any orgasms from masturbation, my Domme was quick to start the new year with a change in routines.

No more daily edging with my fake pussy. No touching it at all. If my wife wants sex, that is the only touching my cock gets.

Intercourse must be pleasing to my wife. If she doesn't cum before I need to ejaculate, I must pull out and ruin my orgasm.

More anal stimulation. I must use the prostate probe twice each week to milk as much from my cock as possible.

The week of ruins ended yesterday with the ultimate task of 12 ruined orgasms. It was a very difficult day. It started with quick arousals and struggles not to ejaculate. Then it moved to more sexual frustration, aching balls, and sore skin as the rubbing created more chafing and chapping. And the day ended with agonizing tugging and rubbing as I tried to get hard...and then struggles to get to the edge and ruin it. So many times I got to the edge and nothing happened. I was simply so drained of cum that nothing came out. And I would have to stroke even more.

OMG!! I don't think I've ever ached like this and had this much frustration! Two ruins in one day made me more horny. Four the next day left me insanely frustrated. SIX the next day was a mess of careful stroking, drooling cum and trembling with need and the struggle to hold back. And that added up to ten in just three days which was also leaving my cock a little sore from all the rubbing.

I’m now just 5 days away from going one entire year without any full, pleasurable orgasms via masturbation. This is not anything I ever expected to happen! I love jerking off. I used to do it very frequently. But last year, my Domme said that I really should learn to be a fuck stick for wifey and a toy for her. That meant that my little dick wasn’t anything for me to play with unless one of them told me to. And my Domme has told me to play a LOT. Daily, in fact. But with the exception of a few ruined orgasms nearly half a year ago, I’ve not been responsible for any solo emissions.

I got to have sex again this week! That is always an exiting time. And always a time to continue my work toward becoming a little fuck stick for my wife’s pleasure.

October 5, 2010...I jerked off and had a really good orgasm. The next day, I told my Domme about it. And she told me it should not happen again. That it was an orgasm and a load of cum that was wasted. I should have saved that for her or for my wife. I should not be seeking such isolated and selfish pleasures when I should be more focused on the pleasure of my wife and my Domme.

So she told me not to jerk off again until/unless she told me.

Hi,

I've just discovered this site, and I'm really pleased to be here. I'm a little disoriented, too....meeting up with a community of people who share some of the same passions that I have secretly held for most of my life. You women are really an inspiration! Whew.

I began masturbating with a little friend, before puberty. We'd lie on our two beds on sleepovers and masturbate together, telling each other what we were doing. My friend liked when we both orgasmed together, but even at that age I remember actually "faking" orgasms because prolonging the intense urge was so powerful, I didn't want to cum.

As I entered puberty and continued to masturbate, I continued to 'edge', but in actual sex, the notion of tease and denial never occurred to me--I guess we were too busy "performing". But that changed in college