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Hello,

I am very sorry to have to report such awful news, but our dear friend Rapid has passed away on March 30th. :( I just happened to check my Chatzy chat room on one of my blogs tonight and found a message that Mrs. Rapid had left for me, Andrea and Melanie.

She said he passed away peacefully at his home on March 30th. I was extremely sad to read this, even though we all knew this day would come soon. Ever since the chat room went in on this site, Rapid has been there greeting all newcomers and befriending everyone.

Rapid was truly a gentleman in every way and though I never met him in real life, I will always consider him a wonderful friend. He was never in a grumpy mood, even through his chemotherapy. He always had a positive and cheerful attitude, no matter the situation and was always a great listener.

Hi all,

Just a quick post here. I wish it could be more but to my dismay, it could not be. Maybe someday I'll write a full blown fantasy about it! As most of you probably know, I've always had a major crush on Nicole Kidman. These days I have more of a crush on Renee Zellweger and Hayden Panettiere but for all time, it's still Nicole.

A couple nights ago I had a dream that I was going to have a tease/bondage session with Nicole. We were at her place and she came up to me and started ripping off all my clothes. When I was finally naked, she drug me by my hair into a separate room. In the middle was a perfectly square table. She made me straddle it. My legs were far apart, dangling off the ends of the table. She tied my ankles so that I wouldn't be moving one bit. She then cuffed my wrists and tied them off far above my head and then slipped a ball gag in my mouth.

Hello!

Last night was the first night in a long time that I had a session of any kind. I had two in fact. When we got home from work Mistress Andrea stripped me and tied me to the coffee table. She went crazy tickling me all over, from head to toe. I hadn't been tickled in a while so it was difficult to take. She then took a long stiff feather and teased my pussy with it. She lightly traced my labia and occasionally flicked my clit with it, sending little shock waves throughout my body. After thoroughly frustrating me like this, she went down orally on me and teased me with her talented tongue. It felt SOOOO good and I was ready to cum almost immediately. She knew this and watched me very close. After a few minutes of this, she left the room for a while to let me simmer in my own juices. I anxiously awaited her return, anticipating what may happen next. I knew no orgasm could take place but I was hoping for more stimulation.

Hello everyone,

I first would like to thank everyone again for all the nice words you had for me last week and for also respecting my wish by not responding any further to my post. I had a really really really shitty week and was on the verge of a mini break down. Not due to my denial, but some personal things. After again shutting things down Saturday night, I talked with two of my good friends from this site and did some major soul searching. What I found out is that writing and blogging is very important to me and without it I'd be lost. Not just blogging about female denial, but also about other things near and dear to me, such as sports, politics, vacations, movies, or whatever. I know this site is dedicated to orgasm denial and related topics, so that's why I'll mainly use my own blog for the other stuff as well as most of the T&D adventures. I have decided to contribute here also from time to time. A lengthy explanation of what happened is on my blog, but as it is now, I intend to keep going. I know I've been a bit off center lately, but thanks to talking to CA and Sir Draco, I think my head is back on straight. :)

Hello,

As of today, I have decided I am leaving the scene for good. I have deleted my blog on Blogger.com. I can't explain why, but my heart just isn't into this anymore. My original plan was to blog until the first of the year anyway, but the blog kept growing and I felt a sense of obligation to keep it running. My health has not been good lately and that may have taken a toll on me but in truth, I just felt less and less like sharing anymore. Maybe it was a sign or maybe not but last night the blog got locked down by Blogger because they wanted to review it to see if it was a Spam Blog which obviously it wasn't. I didn't want to wait around for them to do whatever so I took it upon myself to delete it. I talked with Andrea briefly before doing it and she gave her blessing. Things are fine with us, so don't be concerned. Right now though, I feel like I've shared too much and I just have no desire to keep doing it.

After last night's tease and denial Mistress Andrea suggested that that might be my only chance this month for release. She has informed me just now however that I'll receive one more chance. As some might remember here the original plan was for me to have an appeal to Babykittykat and Erin in Feb, May and I believe either July or August. Anyway, that plan was scratched for various reasons.

However I've been informed that this chance will be just that. Both Babykitty and Erin have to grant me permission to cum and if they do I will have an orgasm at the end of this month. If either says no then I have to wait at least another month to try at something else. As you know my luck with card games, coins, dice etc are dreadful to say the least. I'm hoping the human chance game will be luckier for me.

Oh, the wait is excruciating. It's only been eleven days since I was last given a chance for an orgasm. That's when I lost for the third straight time at the card game. Now it will be a minimum of 14 more days before another opportunity is given to me. Mistress Andrea has not said if my chance will come on May 1st or not.

With Mistress Erin's permission I have been granted at least two chances per month. That means my next chance could come as early as May 1st and as late as May 30th. I am in the dark as to when it will happen. It can not get here soon enough for me. If you were in the chat room this past Saturday you know how desperate I can get. I was horny enough that day to sell my soul to the devil himself just for a chance at an orgasm.

... I'd have no luck at all. Had to do the session last night after midnight because Andrea won't be around tonight. Technically it was Thursday so I did nothing wrong. Anyway as expected I got screwed again and drew a jack of clubs. I know there was no cheating because I held the whole deck in my hand and drew one out and Andrea took the picture. I simply am crushed right now. Erin, I am scared to death about what you might decide on and I really hope you don't really put me back into long term denial because I am desperately needy right now. It is of course your choice though. I await your decision.

First of all I am announcing a change in plan and I hope I don't get ripped for my decision. Since I dismissed Erin from our game I have lived with a sense of guilt over it. She was looking forward to it and so was Andrea. There was no reason for me to do that and I am sorry. I am sorry especially to Erin who I disrespected a great deal. I like her and she's always been cool to me in chat. Today I have asked her to reconsider being my judge and she agreed. She said I have to play by her rules and that I had to post about the rules change which I really did not feel like posting anymore. So Erin now has total control over one thing and that is when I get to cum. It can be as early as today if she agreed but she said no earlier to this request.

I haven't posted in a while. It's been the usual teasing-denying for me as you would expect. I'm a constant horny ,wet, flustered fool. Last night was the first sign that the constant need I feel has effected me in an unusual way.

Mistress Andrea, Mistress Jen, Kirstie and I went to the pizza place for dinner. The same pizza place just a couple months back I skunked Mistress Andrea at Ms. Pac Man and won temporary control of our D/s relationship. Last night before leaving I was in chat popping off that we were getting ready to go and that I would be smashing Mistress Andrea's face in at Ms. Pac Man once again.