dicentra's blog

So I'm squirming again at work, feeling as though I'm constantly, consistently on edge as I'm in another phase of denial again.

There hasn't been a lot of activity the last couple of days. After the last entry I wrote, there was a wonderful evening where I was caned, relatively lightly, with our new acrylic cane. It was the second time Master has used it; the first he left black and blue marks and I think he was hesitant to strike as hard this time, though he did make me cry once more. Not that difficult a task with the cane. Afterwards, he used the - as I call it - "scary wand of doom" in my bottom. This is a blue jelly wand, fairly thick, with large balls along the shaft of it for anal play that we got a little while back, but hadn't used yet as I was kinda frightened of it. I am not all that experienced with anal play but Master has been working on it lately, and so it was time to try the scary wand of doom... which turned out to be not that bad after all, until it got really really really deep.

I got to orgasm!!!

I know it wasn't a very long wait for me, but being new to this I can say without a doubt that the waiting was absolute torture for me. I was so very very frustrated.

Master came home from class and I was already in bed, waiting for him, nude (since that's how he prefers I sleep). I didn't think there was going to be any activites at all, because he was tired and had a bad day, so we just curled up together and I laid with my head on his chest while we talked a little. All of a sudden with no warning, he was flipping me over onto my back on the bed, grabbing my ankles and yanking them into the air, pulling me down the bed with them. I was in such a state of constant arousal that I was, of course, already ready for him. There was no foreplay; he just plunged deep inside of me.

I thought I'd post an intro as I'm new to the site. I had a very long one written out that vanished into cyberspace somehow, so this will be fairly brief.

I am a submissive, bisexual female. I've been married to my Master for five years, together almost seven. I found this site a few weeks ago and showed it to him, which has radically changed things between us. He's talking about card games, and I spent last night trying to sleep with a clit suck-her on after tormented no-clit-touching teasing inspired by this site.

When we first met I thought I was singly orgasmic, but he brought the multiorgasmic side out of me and over the years has gotten me addicted to orgasms... completely smitten with them. I was used to sex 5 - 15 times a week, with many orgasms each time. Oh how that has radically changed! I shouldn't complain, I know many of you have been going for so much longer than I can even comprehend. I'm only three and a half days in, right now. I thought it was going to be two days, as we've done a couple of one day denials in the past with lots of teasing, but I was told today that it would end when my Master wanted it to end, and not before. I think I may have been doing too much begging today.